So, another two weeks has gone by. Still too busy at work, still not getting anything accomplished around home, still fighting with Anna. Did I
mention that one? maybe I didn't.
After two years of being smoke free, she's started again. I'm not happy about it, really not happy about it.So I won't let her smoke in the house,
near the house, or in the car, so she spends all day at the neighbor's house, leaving the kids alone. Which makes me more upset, the kids freak out,
and it just gets worse from there. How did this happen?
So now she avoids me because if I smell the smoke on her I can't stand it. Hypocritical, you say, since I used to smoke I should accept that it's
hard not to? Maybe, but guess what, it's still a habit that will kill you. She's already developed a cronic cough. She can't laugh without it ending
in a coughing fit. Am I to just sit by and watch her die? Like I did my father? My grandmother? Not going to happen. If she won't accept my position,
then I'm not going to sit around and watch her kill herself.
Don't be so pig headed you say? What would Jesus do, you say? Would a Christian man leave his wife over this, you say? I say 'knock knock', 'whose
there', 'go f*** yourselves'. Sin is sin, as a CHRISTIAN WOMAN she should be honoring her God by controling her desires. I desire to go out drinking
and have sex all night. Do I do that? No. Why? Why not? if she won't control her addictions, why should I control mine? Why are hers harmless? She's
basically stealing money, and time, to indulge in this habit, should I let her continue? We don't even have milk in the house, but she has
cigarettes.
