I feel like it's time to do another post, but I really don't know what to say. The holidays are just too much. I'm exhausted, physically and emotionally. The good news is I have some vacation time that I'm using this week, the bad news is that it's really not helping. The longer I'm off work, the more tired I feel. Worse, I'm depressed to the point of immobility.
I've broken down and gotten back on medication. The good thing about that is that even though I consider Wal-Mart to be the worst place to work, they sell prescriptions for only 4 bucks. Previously without insurance, it would cost me about $70 a month. The money has never really been the issue, but 4 bucks vs. 70... I'll take it.
But I've talked enough about depression on here that you really don't want to hear it. But like any disease, like cancer or diabetes, it becomes part of the definition of who you are. But, also like any disease, you can't let it BE who you are. You are more than your disease. It's part of you, but it's not who you are. Who would I be if I didn't have this disease? Who am I since I do have this disease? So I talk about it because I have it, no because I AM it.
Fun for the new year
Now it's a new year. Christmas redefined our home by bringing 2 new video game systems into our house. (Anna and I didn't get them, our generous friends bought them.) But now we are all video game addicts. All of us. Now the trick is to bargain for video game time. "if you do this, you can have this many minutes". It's amazing how quickly the house is getting clean.
