Don't really have any news that you haven't already heard. It's finals week at college, so that will be over soon. The younger kids get out in 2 weeks. Summer will be interesting. We're hoping to maybe take a road trip, but we'll see.
I've had a bad few weeks. I think I'm finally coming out of it, though. I was able to get up and around a bit and do some laundry. After the first load I felt really weak, but I'm at least moving today.
I've been doing a lot of fighting with people lately. I was writing blog posts or posting things on facebook just for the purpose of being able to call someone an idiot. Why? I'm angry. Angry about everything. It's like always boiling beneath my skin.
Then I had a few really REALLY bad days. On top of the chronic "all over pain" and they "usual" headache, I had a full blown migraine attack. But this one was worse than just about anything I'd experienced to date. I honestly thought "this is it, I'm going to die".
But I came out the other side. And I had an epiphany. If I'm angry, why I am doing things just to be more angry? Why am I writing things just to tear people, or myself, down? The world is sucky enough. What I need to do is create.
The world needs less ugly and angry, it needs more beautiful, creative, and funny. So I've been trying to change my way of thinking and doing things. I've slipped a couple times and still picked a fight. But I've been trying to find a much more positive outlet for my anger and frustration.
I keep another blog where I'm trying to do some creative writing. Also, I have a Tumblr blog where I post weird things I do with GIMP (a freeware 'version' of Photoshop). Am I any good at either? No, not really. But it is fun. And it is a release. The process of making something rather than tearing something down is kind of... liberating.
Ok. Enough rambling. Chat me up! Love you all.
